What I'm feeling right now....

I want to live somewhere else. We moved back to Kentucky and it was a major mistake. We gave up a nice house in the country just to be closer to my family. I feel like it's not worth it. I would rather be back in the country. One good thing that did come from this is that my younger kids got a chance to bond with my mom. However, she basically told me that she don't care for them like my oldest daughter. That really hurt me. I mean they are all her grandkids. It makes me so sad that she doesn't love them as much. I don't know what to do. I don't want them growing up feeling like they are being treated differently. I mean my mom even goes as far as saying that she wants to spend time with my oldest and I'm like what about my youngest kids. That's not right and I am really upset about it. To be honest I want to just move away and live my life with my family of my own creation. I just want to be happy and moving far away will do that for me.