Screaming and no one can hear me

I feel like I’m screaming and no one can hear me. I can’t take it. I’m not me anymore. I don’t know if there ever was a me to begin with. I have always been put on the back burner for others. I had to be strong because there is no space for me to be weak. Too many people counting on me. When is it my turn to break down? Will I ever have a turn? I’m so tired. No one can hear me because they too busy taking the spot light. Sometime I wish I could hide in a cave for the rest of my life. I just wish I could not exist for a while. Maybe a couple of years. I’m just so tired. I can’t. The only one here to listen to me is me.